Thank you for the music

July 9, 2007

As I mentioned in my previous post, Terri and her hubby have arrived in town and I met up with them last Tuesday evening.  What a wonderful time we had???!!!  Apart from seeing them again, I also happened to see other friends that I haven’t seen in years.  After all the normal hugs and kisses and tearful reunions, we drank up enough courage to hit the stage and sing karaoke.  Now, I am not a singer, but I am also up for a challenge.  It took us close to an hour to decide what we want to sing.  It was decided on Thank you for the music because we all felt it would be pretty safe.  Did we do well???  Oooooohhh I don’t know, but we most definitely had lots of fun.  I am even going to post some pictures of our effort and you be the judge.

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Just before I finish, here is a pic of two very very happy friends…..

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So, Terri and Dave, thank you for the music on Tuesday evening.  We will have to do this again for sure…. but this time the guys must also sing!!!

How about it Katt??? Would you like to join us in our next appearance!! We can call ourselves Terriland Kattbox Oodlers!!!!


Time waits for no man (or woman)

July 3, 2007

It has been a while since I have last posted something. This only proves that I have been very busy with work and that is a good thing. Too much free time means that I am not working hard enough. I am glad that I have been so busy because I am now seeing results as that is what keeps a business in the black. As for other matters recently discussed on my blog, I am happy to report that relationship wise things are going very well. Life on the home front is absolutely heaven.  We have settled in nicely in our new small home.  I have even done some gardening and that is something I haven’t done in a l-o-n-g time. 

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Life has settled into a very comfortable pattern of getting up for work, going to work and seeing lots of clients, doing demos, quotes, etc and going to the pub(with Mr B), playing a couple of games of pool, going home, preparing supper, having supper, have a bath with the little ones, relaxing in front of the telly and finally going to bed.  Does it sound boring at all??  It shouldn’t because there are loads of little juicy things that happens inbetween and I obviously can’t tell you about those. 

 What I can tell you is that our fellow blogger, Celeste, has given birth to her long awaited little boy and I paid her a visit over the weekend.  He is a beautiful little thing.  It felt so nice holding him close to my heart.  He looks more like his mommy at the moment but I am sure that he is still going to morph a few times.  I love how babies change and develop!!

Another good thing is that fellow bloggers Terri and Bosbefok have come to town for a visit and I am hoping that I will see them soon.  Well, they actually came all the way from Ireland to holiday in sunny South Africa.  It might be cold at the moment, but it sure still is a beautiful sunny day today.

I am feeling happy today.  I feel like I have completed another full circle in my circle of life.  Life is good!!


Drooling over Johnny

June 11, 2007

That is exactly what I found myself doing last night.  Good old M-net(pay channel in SA) broadcast Pirates of the Caribbean – Dead man’s Chest last night.  I have seen it before on DVD, but I just couldn’t resist watching it again.  I simply loved it.  My two little ones were spellbound.  They couldn’t take their eyes off the screen and they loved the “undead monkey” and the talking parrot.  I simply just loved Johnny Depp as Captain Jack Sparrow.  What a nice way to relax on a Sunday evening?  Of course this was followed by a nice long relaxing bubble bath.  Did I dream of Captain Jack?  Well of course I did………

                                                        

(picture thanks to www.mnet.co.za)


Time to pay respect

June 8, 2007

In my last post, I told you about a special lady that passed on.  Today we will say our final farewell to her at 12:00.  Sadly, her funeral service is being held at the same chapel that was used a few months ago for my other friend that passed away very suddenly from a brain tumour. 

After all the turmoil in my life in the past two months, I have come back down to earth with a thud.  The passing of Jean has made me realize that I need to take control of my life and pull myself together.  Life is short and too precious to be wasted like I have been doing.  I have been walking around with all these silly questions and in doing that, I have been wasting so much time making myself miserable.

So, today, I am telling myself – Carpe Diem!! http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Carpe_diem

That is how I will start every day from now.  This brings me to another favourite saying “Positive thoughts breed positive actions”.

I feel like a weight has been lifted from my shoulders and I can finally take a deep breath and exhale slowly.


Sad goodbyes

June 5, 2007

A couple of years ago, I had the privilege to work with a wonderful lady.  She was part of the furniture at the company we both were employed at the time.  I remember that in the time I worked there, she celebrated 50 years with the company.

 She was a spinster and well over 70 years old, but I think in her heart she was always 25.  She drove a little powder blue VW Golf that never got past third gear.  She took care of all her senior citizen friends by taking them shopping or to doctors appointments or to funerals. 

Jean used to always have a very nasty cough and if you asked her how she was, she would tell you “I’m fine” and if you asked her if she needed some medicine for the cough, she would simply say “No, not to worry, I am fine”.  I also remember that she would never join us for our Christmas luncheons.  When we left to enjoy our lunch, she would stay at the office and answer phones and carry on working. The company was her life. When we all knew that the company was closing it’s office in our town, I made it my mission to get her to enjoy our last lunch with us.  To everyone’s amazement, she decided to come with and she had a lovely time. 

She also always had a huge lunch party for her birthday and she had a tradition to always remember the people and friends not with us anymore.  She used to be a companion to a friend of hers who was a medical doctor and became very frail.  She had to be assited with everything she did.  She could hardly walk anymore and when she passed away, I felt such a loss for Jean because I knew that Dr A was what kept Jean going.  Sadly, Jean started ailing soon after and finally passed away this past weekend. 

Jean never married.  She never had any children and lived for her work, Dr A and her friends.  You are going to be missed Jean. May you rest in peace.


What a stuff up????

May 25, 2007

I am stuffing up hugely.  I am in a place where I don’t even know myself anymore.  I am doing the strangest things.  Most of it totally out of character and I can’t seem to stop.  What the hell is going on???

I thought that myself and Mr B is sorting our problems out, but I have realised that he is the only one trying to sort anything out.  I am simply tolerating his efforts and not encouraging anything.  I am such a coward.  I am too afraid to tell him how I really feel and it is not fair to him.  Instead of sitting down and talking to him I run for the nearest pool table and escape from reality.  It is the only place where I feel safe at the moment.  I think I am losing my grip on reality. I need to snap out of this state. 

I am usually a cool, calm, collected and loyal person.  I usually have my priorities in order.  I am the one most people run to for advice or assistance because “you’ve been through it all”.  Is that a good quality or does it simply mean that I have made a total mess of my life??? What does it mean when a relativestranger comes up to you and asks you where your spark has gone??? I normally have a very bubbly infectious personality.  I seem to be able to make people laugh and that has often caused problems in my relationships.  It is weird that that is normally what attracts a person to me in the first place but then later it becomes a problem.  I can’t help it that people enjoy my company.  Should I sit in the corner and just become an observer because I am in a relationship?  Should my partner not have enough trust in me to know that I am just being who I am?  Why should it now turn into a case of me simply looking for and enjoying attention from other men?? I have been here before and it is not going to get any better.  I know that for a fact.  It will only get worse and I would understand Mr B reacting the way that he does if I was a beautiful women with men dangling at my feet, but that is not the case.  I am an average looking woman who happen to have a very positive effect on people around me and that is why they want to be around me. Maybe my destiny is to not be in a relationship.  Maybe I should simply just continue being a friend to everyone and be done with the whole relationship scene. After all, I have my children who will love me and hold me and kiss me and be happy to see me after a long day at work.  I am too independent to try and be something that somebody else want me to be.  I am too set in my ways to try to change and fit in with what another person wants me to do.  I simply just want to be able to be myself.

Here is a special treat.  I treated myself to a professional photoshoot a while back and this is my favourite picture.  This one is especially for Chuck!!!

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Daze of my life

May 23, 2007

It has been a while – again!!  Life is full of oodles and noodles and a little bit fun at the moment.

My last post was a bit nostalgic and I think has left a few people very confused.  Maybe that is a good thing.  Put some mystery back into my blog.  But alas, I wear my heart on my sleeve and I know that is why I get so emotional about things. 

It has been a tough period and full of good and bad happenings.  The good is that

my business is doing well,

my team won the Super 14,

I played in a pool competition as part of a team for our pub and won the games that I had to play,

I found a new place of residence,

The bad is

business could be better,

the rest of our team didn’t do so well and we lost the compo by 2 games,

I have to move again.

As far as my relationship is going, I don’t know if it is going to be going up or down.  For now, we are moving together and will take it step by step. Staying together is better for our two little ones and while we are not fighting and also while things are peaceful at home, it is best for them that we stay together as long as possible.  Falling in love is wonderful, but falling out of love is shattering. It is not that either of us are involved with someone else, but rather that we don’t seem to love each other anymore.  We have grown used to having each other around and are more like friends than lovers. Enough said about that.

Our other blogger friend Celeste, is doing well and her baby is due in about a month. She has to fight with her other half to get access to the computer and she is seriously suffering withdrawals.  So, this is me saying hi to all of her readers and just letting you know that she is well and blossoming.