For Angel…..

April 30, 2007

Angel left an interesting comment on my previous entry and she has made me think about the things I was pondering about.  Let’s see what I can come up with.

1. What’s up with the cricket? 

My final analysis is that it simply just wasn’t our day.  If we had won we would not have seen the Australians making complete fools of themselves by prematurely celebrating a win in the world cup.  Ok, they did win in the end, but it sort of wasn’t the same after they made idiots of themselves during the last few overs of the game.  Shame on them.

2. What’s up with my husband leaving me???

He doesn’t deserve me.  I am way too good for him and he can eat his silly old socks and suffer for what he did to me.  It is very big of him to admit that he made a mistake but I am most definitely not going to give him another chance at it.  

3. What’s up with my friend leaving???

She had to.  She was not happy here and if she hadn’t left and started a new life in New Zealand she would never have met her wonderful loving husband, Ian. Thanks to our wonderful technology, she is always only on the other side of the phone or e-mail.  It doesn’t change the fact that we are best friends. It also doesn’t change the fact that I can still talk to her or ask for advice.  It also doesn’t change the fact that I love her dearly and only wish her all the happiness that she deserves.

4. What’s up with the pregnancies????

Miracle of life.  I wouldn’t change them for anything.  They have brought so much joy to me.  They have taught me unconditional love and show me so much love that my heart wants to burst at times. I did have myself sterilised though, just in case another miracle tries to happen. Besides that, I am getting too old now to do the whole nine month carry the baby thing.  Come to think of it, I will be almost 60 when my babies reach their 20’s.  I doubt if I will be able to handle the sleepless night they are most definitely going to cause me.  Strangely  though, I am looking forward to it. 

5. What’s up with the agency???

I have finally done something right.  I have worked very hard at this and I am not going to stop now.  This is a culmanation of years of hard work and wanting to do something worthwhile with my life.  I love people and I communicate well with people.  I am not the best speaker but I always manage to get my message across.  I have a lot of drive and ambition and yes, I am very enthusiastic about the product because I believe in it.  I think it is my bubbly personality and honest face that always wins the customer over.  I don’t just believe in selling the product and waving the purchaser goodbye.  I believe in selling the product, installing it, showing the customer how to use it and most importantly letting the customer know that I am only a phone call away if something does go wrong.  Fortunately for me, I live in a relative small city and same day service is mostly possible and that is important to a customer.  They don’t want to hear about next week or even tomorrow.  They want to know that they can see you today!!! That is my aim.

Ok, questions asked and answered.  Now can I please get out of this mood and just be my normal funny silly self again??????

I think I must go play some pool again. Get some of my frustration out and I can’t think of a better way to do it than knocking a few hard round balls across a table. I can think of another way but there hasn’t been a lot of luck in that department lately.  Maybe I should phone a friend and ask for advice or assistance in this regard……………………………

That’s more like it.  Seems that I am clawing my way back. Come hell or high water, I refuse to feel so depressed and angry.  I will laugh even if it means laughing at myself or my 9 1/2 toes!!!!!!


What’s up with that?????

April 26, 2007

It was simple.  All they had to do was hit a few balls and score some runs. Then they were supposed to send the other team in and bowl them out before scoring more runs than we did.  They got bowled out for 149 lousy runs.  In a world cup semi final of all places.  What’s up with that????

Another simple thing.  I met a guy and fell in love(so I thought).  He was supposed to just love me back and treat me well.  Instead he found someone else and left me. Now he is crying that he made a mistake and wants me back.  What’s up with that??? 

I meet my soul-mate and then she moves to the other side of the world. What’s up with that???

Here’s another one.  I got told by my physician that I won’t be able to fall pregnant and then I have two beautiful children.  What’s up with that???

Just in case you’re still reading, here’s another one. I got passionate about a certain accounting package that I came across.  I registered to become a dealer with them and sold some packages and now I have been appointed as Agent for the region I live in.  They love my enthusiasm. What’s up with that???

So, I guess you have gathered by now that I am in a bit of a pensive mood today.  I have so many questions milling around in my mess of a mind.  A couple of months ago, I chose this new path that I am now travelling on and instead of settling down, I am asking myself all sorts of questions.  Some of them are scary and some of them are just random what’s up with that’s.  What amazes me is the fact that I am so busy with work but yet my mind still finds time to jab all these questions in my direction.  Why now???

Scooby Doo rules!!!

April 22, 2007

Jodi loves Scooby Doo and I found someone that made him the perfect birthday cake. His little sister helped him to blow out the candles over and over again before they would allow us to cut the cake. 


It’s my birthday…

April 17, 2007

Happy birthday to you,                                             birthday-boy.jpg

happy birthday to you,

happy birthday dear Jodi                                    

Happy birthday to you!!!

It is my little boy’s birthday today.  I have been blessed with his beautiful little soul for 3 years today!! He is the most loving little boy and full of mischief.  He loves his little sister dearly and being the good brother that he is, he always stands up for her.  When I wished him happy birthday this morning, he asked me if it isn’t his sister’s birthday too.  I must wish her happy birthday too. You have brought so much joy to my life my little one.  You are my rock and my strength.  Mommy loves you soooooooooooooooooo much!!!!

Should I stay or should I go???

April 5, 2007

This is a serious rant.  If you liked me until today, I’ll advise you not to continue reading.  Just skip this one and come visit me again when I am more cheerful.  If you do choose to continue reading, you might want to delete me off your blogroll. No, just kidding.  But it is a serious family related rant and I will appreciate any comments you have. 

Should I stay or should I go now?
Should I stay or should I go now?
If I go there will be trouble
An’ if I stay it will be double
So come on and let me know

That is a very heavy question.  It is also a question laying solidly on my heart.  Most woman, actually most people, want to feel loved and appreciated.  Most people want to come home to peace and quiet and spending a lovely family evening together.  You know, asking questions like “how was your day”, “did you sort out the problem in class”, etc.

Instead I come home to a house full of visiting kids seeing that is school holiday.  Since Friday last week, I have had on average 10 – 12 children sleeping in my house.  As if I don’t have enough of my own and Mr B’s, I now have to deal with all their friends too.  I have to fight my way over legs and towels and dirty clothes to get into the sanctity of my bedroom.  I live in a huge house but I hide in my bedroom to prevent myself being nasty to the kids.  I am constantly shopping for milk, bread, butter and cooldrinks but yet when I feel like having a sandwich low and behold, there is no bread.  I turn to the next best thing, a cup of coffee.  So, I make the coffee and turn to the fridge for some milk to add to my coffee but do I find milk in the fridge?  No, just an empty container with a couple of drops in the bottom.  I won’t even talk about the prospect of having a nice cold class of cooldrink. Never mind not finding any cooldrink in the fridge, I won’t find a glass in the cupboard to drink the cooldrink out of. They have broken 8 glasses in this past week.  It is a miracle that Jodi or Jessi aren’t walking around with cut feet.

Am I feeling sorry for myself? For sure I am. Am I asking for empathy? Most definitely! Will I get any from Mr B? I don’t think so.  His take on it is that the kids are happy and well liked and have lots of friends.  All things very important to teenagers, but I think they have crossed the line and it is now a fact that they are taking advantage and I simply just won’t have any of it anymore.  They don’t ask if so and so can sleep over.  They simply just do it.  This last week has emptied my grocery cupboards and the financial strain attached to it is also just making me more furious. 

I can’t help but think what type of parents these other kids have.  Some of them haven’t been home in almost a week and do the parents care? Do they phone to find out if they need anything? What about a phone call or just a visit saying “I know his been here for a long time, here’s a loaf of bread.” I didn’t grow up like this.  My own children don’t feel free to visit me because there is no space for them.    

This is simply not my way of doing things.  They(boys and girls) all sleep in the flatlet section of the house.  The problem is that we don’t know who is sleeping where and with whom.  When I objected, I got shouted down by Mr B and told to relax.  “Stop being so bitchy with the kids and let them be.  They are on holiday and enjoying themselves.” I have to go and do 6 loads of washing tomorrow because every towel in my house is dirty.  Every duvet has to be washed because each and every one of them is dirty.  I don’t mind the work, but I do mind that they don’t offer to help.  They simply bitch because they can’t find any clean towels or bedding. Not one of these visitors brought a clean towel with them.  Between all the swimming and showers and so forth, I have run out of clean towels and I have lots of towels.  Like some women buy shoes, I buy towels(you didn’t know that about me!!!). 

I am normally a good kind hearted people loving person with a contagious smile and witty sense of humour.  I have big bright shiny eyes and when I looked in the mirror this morning, I got a fright.  The person staring back at me was a hard angry woman with red eyes.  She looked tired and old.  Like she has had all the life sucked out of her.

I have to go home now.  I am scared to because I don’t know what is waiting for me.  I am scared that I am going to finally blow my lid and then Mr B will take his kids and leave.  Or maybe I want that to happen… I don’t know anymore.  Maybe I should find a little townhouse or flat for myself and the kids and make a new life.  One where I make or break the rules. One where I will be in control.  Maybe that is what I should do….

New blogger on the block!!

April 4, 2007

As you all know of and painstakingly endured the high school reunion last year, I am happy to inform that one of my old ex classmates has started her own blog.  As you know and remember it is a very exciting time and I just wanted to wish her all the best and pray that she will enjoy the experience as much as I did and still do.  You will find her here .

So go on over and give her a hearty bloggers welcome.


Life explained

April 4, 2007

I don’t know who wrote this, but it put a smile on my face….

When God created the dog, He said: “Sit all day by the door of your house and bark at anyone who comes in or walks past. For this, I will give you a life  span of twenty years.”The dog said: “That’s a long time to be barking.  How about only ten years and I’ll give you back the other ten?”So God  agreed.

Next, God created the monkey and said: “Entertain people, do  tricks, and make them laugh. For this, I’ll give you a twenty-year life  span.” The monkey said: “Monkey tricks for twenty years? That’s a pretty long time to perform. How about I give you back ten like the Dog  did?”

And God agreed.

God then created the cow and said: “You must  go into the field with the farmer all day long and suffer under the sun, have  calves and give milk to support the farmer’s family. For this, I will give you a  life span of sixty years.”

The cow said: “That’s kind of a tough life you  want me to live for sixty years. How about twenty and I’ll give back the other  forty?”

And God agreed again.

Finally, God created man and said:  “Eat, sleep, play, marry and enjoy your life. For this, I’ll give you twenty  years.” But man said: “Only twenty years? Could you possibly give me my twenty,  the forty the cow gave back, the ten the monkey gave back, and the ten the dog  gave back; that makes eighty, okay?”

“Okay,” said God, “You asked for  it.”

So that is why the first twenty years we eat, sleep, play and enjoy ourselves. For the next forty years we slave in the sun to support our family.  For the next ten years we do monkey tricks to entertain the grand-children. And  for the last ten years we sit on the front porch and bark at  everyone.

Life has now been explained to you..