Open Letter

February 28, 2007

This is between me and my Maker. If you choose not to continue reading, no offence will be taken.

Dear God

I have been very silent lately.  I haven’t been speaking to you as much as I did before.  I have been battling on my own and trying to do everything thrown at me on my own strength.  I have even asked myself if You are real.  I have been totally self absorbed and engrossed in my own little world.

I suddenly realized that there is no way that I could have been handling life on my own strength.  I realized that when I couldn’t carry on and wanted to give up, You were there. I realized that without me even asking, you put me on a path that has led to many successes.  I know that it didn’t just come from me.  I am way too weak to have endured all the trials and tribulations.  If it was up to me, I would have been dead already.  It wasn’t the Prozac that saved me. It was You. 

Thanks to You, I am now running my own business.  Thanks to You, I have more work than I can handle on my own.  Thanks to You, I will be able to employ someone and change her life.  Thanks to you I have beautiful children who love me unconditionally.  Thanks to you, I am alive again. Thanks to you, I have a new outlook and life and thanks to You, I believe again.



Not let down anymore!!

February 26, 2007

After feeling miserable the previous weekend I must admit and say that things are looking up for the Bulls.  They made it! A win! If you go by prematch talk, it should have been an easy win for them considering the performance of the Chiefs thus far in the competition.  But, true to Bulls style, they left us hanging on our seats and pulled it off once again in the dying minutes of the game.  Victor Matfield learnt from his mistakes the previous week and took the points wherever he had a chance.  His face as the whistle blew to signal the end of the game was in my book a mastercard moment!!! What made it even more exciting was the fact that the try had been referred to the tv-umpire to adjudicate the validity of the try and he took a couple of looks and came back with “you may award the try”.  Now the Bulls head overseas and this will be a telling time for them.  They don’t have a brilliant away from home history.  I am still rooting for you Bulls!!!

 I also watched the Lions game against the Western Force and boy what a fantastic game.  These two teams are setting an example that I genuinely hope the rest of the teams in the competition will try to follow.  They don’t hold anything back.  They played for the full 80 minutes of the game and it was never sure which way it was going to go. The end score could have easily have been in the Force’s favour.  Hats off to both teams.  The Lions finally pulled it off winning by 25-24.  What a thriller???

Another game I was fortunate to watch was the Cheetahs – Crusaders.  The Crusaders obviously had a point to prove after going down against the Lions last weekend.  They proved that point in CAPITAL LETTERS!!! They gave the Cheetahs a thrashing and I think it was the first time I saw them(the Cheetahs) looking confused.  They were trying everything, but the Crusaders were just too strong.  This also brings me to the player who impressed me the most this past weekend and it was most definitely Stephen Brett from the Crusaders.  He scored a try, put over 5 conversions and 3 penalties.  My ag-shame player also comes from this game and it was Herkie Kruger.  The Cheetah number 10 had a completely off night.  He did put over a drop goal and that should save him some face.

Just so you don’t think that I only watch the games that our teams play in, I did watch the game between the Blues and the Reds.  For most of the game it looked like there was only one team on the field.  The Blues outplayed the Reds and the end score is a true reflection there of. The Blues ran out winners at 38-13.  Well done to them and I think they are also one of the final contenders!!!!  

All in all a very enjoyable weekend of rugby.  I prefer not to comment on the Stormers game and if you watched it, you will understand.

GO BULLS< GO LIONS< GO WESTERN FORCE<GO BLUES – Let’s see how far the above 4 teams get in the compo!!! 

What a let down??

February 19, 2007

I have many passions.  One of them being rugby. Now, unfortunately for me, I am a Blue Bulls fan and I have to ask myself the question.  Why oh why oh why????  What a disappointing game on Friday evening?  It was a game that they shouldn’t have lost.  They had it in the bag and then they just let it slip away.  I am at a loss for words…

 We have 5 teams playing in the Super 14.  All our other teams won their games over the last weekend.  The Lions even beat the Crusaders.  But what were the Bulls thinking???? That is a major part of the problem in SA rugby.  Go into the lead at half time and then just defend that lead.  What utter bull???!!!! How can any team think that? Some people say it is because the Bulls are arrogant and think they are superior.  The Bulls had an opportunity in the last minutes to level scores after getting a penalty within reach of the posts, but no Mr Matfield decided not to take the sure 3 points.  This happened not once but twice in the dying minutes of the game.  That surely supports the mindset of them being an arrogant side.    A draw in my book is better than a loss. 

I have never been a Sharks supporter.  Don’t ask me why, but I just never liked them.  Bearing that in mind and the fact that my team are treading water at the moment, I want to commend them for the results they have shown so far.  What a different team from last season!!!  I almost also want to single out the very young Lions team and say “Keep an eye on them”.  They have something that most of our other teams lack and that is good discipline and team work.

My player of the weekend was most definitely Percy Montgomery.  I haven’t seen that kind of commitment from any other player in a long time.  Well done to you Percy!!!!

My ag shame player would be Schalk Burger without a doubt.  The guy must have seriously pissed of the worst referee ever.  Schalk was eventually sent off the field for offences he did not commit.  Schalk, shave your hair because I think the refs are looking for that bush of hair of yours and you are way too easy for them to spot. 

Lover’s revenge

February 15, 2007

I stole some time from my own busy schedule and read some blog posts about Valentines Day. The common trend was very negative and I am not at all surprised.  I find the same with Easter and Christmas. 

When I was still a bright eyed teenager(long time ago) I lived for Valentine’s Day.  It all seemed so much different back then.  It was about sending someone you “liked” something signed “guess who”.  The fun part was not really knowing where these gifts, cards or notes actually came from.  It was all innocent fun and obviously the more gifts you received the better.  It was a cardinal sin to sign your name or even hint at your identity. 

Today, Valentines Day is a joke. It has been commercialized to death.  All the fun has been taken out of what used to be a very special day.  Gone are the days of finding a flower on your desk with a note saying “You are beautiful” or finding a box of chocolates with a note saying “Go on, just eat them.  You can diet again tomorrow”. 

Another thing I realized is that men and women look at the day in a completely different way.  Women get warm and fuzzy feelings about the special meaning of the day.  Men think “Oh my God!! How much is this going to cost me and will I get some *bouncy-bouncy for all my trouble.”

Why all the pressure about doing something better than the next person? Why do some people feel the need to spend so much money in the hope to get lucky at the end of the night?

It also made me think and ponder on which Valentines Day has left a lasting impression on me.  Sadly, I can’t recall a Valentines Day that will forever remain in my memory.  I can only add that one thing that I do remember happened about 10 years ago when I worked for a very large company.  I used to run the events coordination section and used to deal with lots and lots of clients.  One of these clients walked in on Valentines Day and personally presented me with the biggest bouquet of flowers I had ever received and in front of a whole office of people told me the following.

“This is in no way a sexual advance.  I am merely sharing this with you today because of the person you are.  If I could choose a perfect Valentine, it would be you.”

He turned around and walked away.  After I stopped blushing and endured all the office banter, I realized what the gift was all about and I knew then that that is what Valentines day is about.

Will we ever be able to find our way back to those days?

I met a guy yesterday while at a client.  We chatted and laughed about the whole concept of Valentines Day. My client is a happily married guy and was actually offended by the idea of sending a bunch of flowers to someone that you are not married to or romantically involved with. The other guy summarily obtained my cell number from someone in the building and on my way home I received a Valentines message from him. He is also a happily married guy and was obviously trying to prove a point.  Don’t know if I got it, but it did make me smile. In all honesty, it made me feel good that he went through the trouble of finding my number and all that.  Does he have ulterior motives?? I hope not because that would just spoil it all won’t it???

I think what I am trying to conclude is that in SA we have 3 seasons,  Valentines Day, Easter and Xmas.  Please note my spelling on Xmas because in my own personal humble little opinion Christ has disappeared from Christmas and replaced by X marks the spot for the best deals available.

Love is in the air

February 14, 2007

val72.gifJust a quick note to wish all my buddies a very happy Valentine’s Day. I didn’t buy Mr B anything because he is lucky enough to be involved with a very romantic person and he has a Valentines surprize on a regular basis!!!!

Needless to say, I am not expecting anything either because he is totally not romantic. I’ll be lucky if he even remembers that it is Valentines Day today.  I’m not holding my breath….

So, for all the romantics out there, may you be spoiled rotten and may Cupid smile on you!!!

Buddess meets Katt

February 12, 2007

I had the wonderful privilege of meeting Katt on Friday afternoon.  I was pleasantly surprised!!!  What a wonderful afternoon we spent together.  After reading her blog over the past months and seeing the emotional roller-coaster she was on for the last few weeks, I thought that meeting her would be good for both of us.  We had spoken about it before.  Seeing that we are both women who love to air our views and also help others, I thought it was about time that we met. 

 I am not going to go into too much detail for now.  All I am going to say is that she really impressed me.  She is a beautiful person inside and out.  I don’t think she even realized how much our time together meant to me.  I felt like a new person when I got up from the table and headed home with a certain bounce in my step. 

 Watch out PE.  Here comes Katt and Buddess.  Buckle up and enjoy the ride!!!!!